Music is my life

I remember dad played the guitar when I was very young and he used to sing and play all the sentimental old songs in the car whenever we're on a trip or something. Yes, I was raised in a family who taught me to enjoy music and I developed my musical skills and talent through old hits and old movie soundtracks. When people ask me "Hey, do you listen to 90's or 80's?","Of course, name me any bands or songs back then." I used to fancy Cyndi Lauper, Bee-Gees, Abba, Oasis, Elton John, and Madonna.

So, the story of my life.. I started learning piano when I was 4 yrs old, and singing spontaneously when I was 6 or 7. I remember every weekend, my parents would send me to piano or music classes. I stopped learning piano around grade 5 and at the age of 17. Reason was I needed to focus on SPM, but that didn't stop me to continue singing and playing the piano. Britney spears, Christina Aguilera, Blue, Hilary Duff and Kelly Clarkson were my favorite singers back then. I remember back in those days I used to purchase their CD's and listen to them with my old CD walkman. Well, I'm not sure if the kids in this generation know what a CD walkman is. Lol. But life was much more simpler and easier back then.

Music and art were my life when I was a little girl. On my 9th year old birthday, I received a huge box of crayons from my parents and I already felt like the happiest girl. Not only that I developed my musical talent and interests, also my drawing skills. But unfortunately, I stopped drawing after I reached the age of 14 or 15, reason was I grew up and I realized I enjoy singing and playing the piano even more. When I reached high school, I was encouraged by my elder brother to join the choir. I gotta admit, Catholic choir was one of the top choirs in Kuala Lumpur and I remember winning 1st or 2nd place in district and state areas was my greatest achievement back then. It's undeniable that I had plenty of issues in high school like friendship, family, result, and relationship.. and choir was the one thing that light up my life.
Apart from that, I participated in a few singing auditions and performances outside like Digi Youth audition, performances organized by some music schools, and many more. I would sing Avril Lavigne, Kelly Clarkson, Rihanna, Christina Aguilera songs or duet with my elder brother. One of the memorable performances was dueting with my elder brother, we sang "The prayer" and it was amazing. The audiences gave us a round of applause.

When I reached college, I joined and participated in some music audition and performances. Back in 2012, I participated in "Segi Idol" and made it into top 10. I had so much fun meeting some new friends who are so talented. Some of them are so good on stage and seriously, to compare myself with them, I think they are way more talented and better. (Self esteem drop) *sobs* HAHA. But it's alright, that doesn't stop me from being myself and improving my vocal and stage performance.

Anyway ladies and gentlemen, I know it's a little long but I hope you enjoyed reading my story.
I'd like to let you guys know.. "Don't waste your talent or ability.. Cherish and use them wisely because they are the assets that set you apart and make you stand out from the rest. Keep fighting and improving to be better because they make you a unique person" Smile. :)

Real insecurities

So, this week  is the beginning of new semester, and apparently most of us have already started planning our groups for assignments. Unfortunately, I felt sick and feverish today so I ended up staying home and sleep instead. When I woke up, my friends told me they all had their own groups for assignments and that drove me absolutely panic and worried because as you know, I didn't attend the class due to fever and I don't have a group for assignments. So, I immediately picked up my phone and called my other classmates and see if their groups have slots. I ended up joining a group because apparently they are the only group who still have empty slots. 

Yes, I was feeling a little negative after knowing that I'm gonna be with an unfamiliar group for assignment. Plus the last semester I had some conflicts with my old group mates, I'm just really worried that they might do something really terrible to me this semester. I know I shouldn't care too much of what others gonna think about me but this is just my insecurity. And apparently, the new friends I mixed with, they are not in the same class with me, so this subject is prolly gonna be difficult for me to handle. This feeling sucks but I need to stand up and be strong in class and prove to them that I'm right. I need to do that.

However, after hearing Lizzie Velasquez's speech on YouTube, I then realized my life isn't that bad after all. I mean like compare to some patients who are fighting for their lives, or maybe some people who are homeless, disabled and so on. I should be grateful that I was given a normal life to live. Yes, I still might feel insecure and all but I will definitely do my best for this semester.

Like what Lizzie Velasquez said "You choose happiness or you choose to give up".
She definitely inspires me a lot, like a true role model.