End of chapter

So after a year plus of endurance and tolerance, I have finally raised the white flag. I surrendered. I am tired of compromising the things that ain't worth it. As a friend, I personally feel that I should be treated the same like how we should be treated. I mean, if you call yourself a friend and you feel unsatisfied or anything, speak up. Being stabbed at the back is already bad enough, being accused for doing the things I did not is far worse than that. People told me I have changed so much and the reason why I changed was because too many things had accumulated till the point where I couldn't smile and I became negative.

"We are just tired of being taken for granted. Throughout this whole semester you have contributed nothing." I'm utterly speechless. Sigh. Some people have this perception like they can step on you just because they feel they are better than you. Well, yeah. In the end no matter how much you did, people will not be satisfied. I know I shouldn't have even blogged nor cared about this but I'm just exhausted and sick. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally fine now. I know it ain't worth it being sad or frustrated over this matter. In fact, I'm even more happier because I'm outta this. I chose to end our friendship and I know it's worth it because I don't deserve being mistreated over and over like that as a friend. Maybe a little depressed still, but I'll be fine I promise. The old Sapphire will return soon, in no time.


Moral of the story - No matter how much you do in the end you can't please everyone. Choose your friends wisely, care about those who love you, and be yourself. Also, be genuine and treat others the way you want to be treated.

Monday.. not my day

"If you're a fan of Monday, putcha hands up!.." *nobody responds* See, that's how terrible Monday is. Imagine yourself partying hard on the weekends, and the next day you have to wake up early in the morning for class or work, kills joy isn't it? Well, that's why people tend to have Monday blues and so on. Nuff said. 

So, my Monday was super hectic and depressing at the same time. I had been at the college from morning 11am until 6pm at evening. Can you imagine how crazy hectic that was? I know I'm not the only one, but seriously the college could have manage the schedule much more better. *face palm* At least let us relax and have a little bit of break after the weekends. Well well.. I guess life doesn't always go the way we demand or want it to be. 

Now let's talk about the depressing part, so the reason why I felt depressed was because I noticed that lately I have been lost, like literally. It's like, everyday I wake up and I go to college just for the sake of attendance and good results. It's like imagine yourself waking up everyday going to class for the same intentions and goals, it just kinda makes me bored and lazy after some time. Apart from that I don't really feel the sense of belonging anymore. Like seriously, compared to the beginning of this course, almost everyday I would hang out and do a lot of different activities outdoor. I guess perhaps it's a good thing now for having a distance with the bunch knowing that they did something behind of me before. Maybe this is what it's meant to be. In life, we have to deal with all kinds of things regardless whether it's good or bad. 

Probably now it's the stepping stone for me in order to be able to handle well and much more better in the future. I know this is just temporary, it won't last forever. I just need to be strong and have faith in myself, hopefully I have enough strength and courage to go through all these.. hopefully.

This is how my Sunday went

Wake up in the afternoon, feeling like OMFG IT'S SHOPPING SPREE DAY! I'M SO EXCITED! Homies be like, wert?! whaz so fascinatin.  I'm feeling extra hyper and lame today, excuse me. *clears throat, serious face*

So, my day was absolutely well-spent, Yeaabsolutely. We went to Times Square, Low Yat, and Sungei Wang Plaza. I gotta say it had been ages since the last time I went there, and it felt extra awesome especially being able to be there with my love. REALLY. You have no idea how boring it is going to the same places repeatedly almost every week. It's like gimme a break or allow me to jump off the cliff please.

Apart from that, I'd really like to thank my boyfie for sparing some time and effort to bring me all the way to KL. Not forgetting the black transparent maxi dress from H&M and the delicious dinner. Basically, just want to thank him for everything. He's a nice guy although he's annoying sometimes. LOL. Love you so so much, my irreplaceable piggy boo!

Love this dress! Appreciate it so much. Thanks baby.

              ❤          

Pineapple fried rice & Nasi Bojari (Signature dish), 8/10

#Latepost Horror-fest

So, it was halloween, I decided to dress up as a sexy devil. Well, I actually wanted to go for leopard theme but I realized it was too last minute and I didn't have an appropriate pair of shoes. Hence, imma stick to devil. 

Overall, I met a lot of new friends that day and I'm quite satisfied with my performance. It's just that the crowd was kinda dead on that night. Most of them seemed to not paying attention when I was singing. I mean, it's alright. It's just a minor performance anyway. As long as I had fun, that's all that matters. Also on the other hand, I'd like to really thank my boyfriend and my best friend who came all the way just to support me on stage. Even though she was late and she missed my performance but I'm still happy that she made the effort to come and support me. It's hard to find people like them these days. I am truly grateful and touched that I have them in my life. Love them so so much! <3 

                                 The homeless bohemian singer- Krystle.

My best friend, Carmen who came and support me all the way.

Evangelina! Sweet and mysterious girl. 

My drummer, Josh. He's an awesome guy.

My one & only boyfriend, best friend, listener, adviser and so many more, Marcus.