Forbidden fruit

That's right, you're reading this post now and it is about me - A forbidden fruit. It usually occurs when you prohibit yourself from having faith in anyone, distance yourself from people who try to get close to you or push away guys who desire you. I'm not sure if it's a good sign but it definitely feels nice without having any attachment. It's like I'm able to do anything without being restricted.

Two months ago, I met a few guys. There were some good and bad ones. Unfortunately, things didn't seem to go on track as I realised they were just a bunch of guys full of hideous intentions or they're just simply not my type. One of them even attempted to enter my house with excuses like "oh, I  want to spend time with you and get to know you a little more" or "I need your favour on my assignments". I mean, it sucks when you're dating someone just for a few days and he already requested for "it" - I'm sure you know what I mean. Well.. just in case if you're wondering why I'm so heartless or cold, maybe this is one of the reasons? Some guys are just full of unpredictable intentions.

I stopped contacting that dude who attempted to sleep with me. I mean, I'm not being close-minded or anything but seriously, it's disappointing to find out he approaches you for his own pleasure or benefit. It's not the first time I encountered this and this is probably the reason to being an absolute forbidden fruit. I can't fathom girls who allow guys to fool them with their flattery tricks or skills. I mean, I believe girls should value themselves and to be smart enough to reject guys if they are up to something fishy. 

This is my personal belief and opinion..

The environment is one of the factors

Hey people, I'm finally back in action after most of the stressful events and assignments! But that's not the end yet.. 3 more assignments this week and followed by exam on next week! I'm so tired seriously.. But I know it will all be over soon. *Faith*

This post today is about how environment has changed me and shaped me into who I am today. The competitiveness in class, fake people that I had to deal with almost everyday, pile of stressful assignments and tasks, you-name-it. Life does not come easy. The environment has shaped me into a better person in so many aspects and I'm beyond thankful for each valuable lesson learned after each problem or obstacle faced.

When you realise you stopped caring for unnecessary things, that's when you know you have become one step even more mature. I stopped worrying over people who do not appreciate me and I stopped putting so much commitment and feelings into people. I mean, the least you expect or count on, the lesser disappointment you'll get.

I may not be the most smartest or perfect person but hey, guess what? I am not fake. I am one of the most genuine persons you could ever find, I swear.

Before I end this post, I'd like to express again how grateful I am to still have real friends around me. 

To those people, thank you for being in my life. xx

Family moments @ River View Seafood Restaurant

Hi lovelies! How's everyone doing? I hope y'all are doing great and awesome out there. It has been literally a week plus I haven't been posting any updates and finally, here I am.

So, it was Sunday and brother's back from UK last week. Me and family decided that we're gonna head to Kuala Selangor for seafood. Well, at first we actually planned to go to Malacca but didn't make it because it was already late.

I have been eating there since when I was a little, probably 4 to 6 years old. I'd say, the seafood was delicious and definitely my all time favourite seafood restaurant. We ordered more than 5 dishes but I only managed to capture some of them because I was concentrating eating when the food arrived on the table. Ain't nobodeh got taime for pictures. LEWWWL.
But yeah, I had good food and awesome time with my loved ones. I'd definitely recommend this restaurant to everyone who wishes to have delicious seafood whether it is for dinner or lunch.

 Super delish fried cornflake prawns

Sweet and sour prawns

Smashed taufu soup (TAU FU KANG)

Some healthy veggies

The legendary sweet and sour crab *drools*

All the beautiful sceneries

Awesome family selfies and portraits

Real happiness can't be bought with money

As overrated as this sounds like to you, ladies & gents, it's true that genuine happiness can't be simply bought with dollars, cash, credit cards. It's seen in movies, heard in speeches and conversations and many more. Yes, perhaps, it may be helpful to you in terms of providing the temporary happiness as you wish like for instance, getting you the dream car/ cellphone/ expensive branded items and so on.
However, what I mention here, it's the "GENUINE HAPPINESS" that can't just simply be bought with money.

Today, I saw something that absolutely amazed me. A gas seller who drives a lorry daily around to deliver cooking gases to citizens and households. What amazed me so much was the happiness he carried internally and externally. When I looked at the smile on his face, something hit me. I began to realize that it is true.. "money can't buy you pure happiness." ; being rich doesn't make you happy. Also, that inspired me a lot. I mean like, even him as an ordinary person can be so happy, so why can't us?

I've also realized that society has shaped mankind to be materialistic. They often work so hard and unintentionally abandon or neglect their loved ones. At the end of the day, what do you benefit? Yes, you may earn enough income to pay off your expenses and to able to afford the things that you want, but it certainly can't buy you the quality time with your family and important ones in your life. Well, of course, neither can poverty buy happiness. It's good to have a decency of income, not too high and too low. I'd say, balanced.

Anyway, agree or disagree. No hatred guys. It's based on my own opinions and point of view.
Thanks for reading my blog, guys. Have a nice day ahead.

Late night thoughts

Hi, it's Saturday, 2:56am here to be exact. I'm wide awake right now and I feel hungry too. I want to eat something but I'm afraid of getting fat. I get extra hungry watching Gordon Ramsay's homecook food videos on YouTube.. Maybe I should stop. Okay. Stop.
So, what's on my mind? Nothing much. Just online, watching some YouTube videos and searching for some freelance jobs to attend. So far, I have sent in my profile to certain jobs but unfortunately, I'm still not receiving any feedback. The worst thing is, it's the middle of May right now. I'm just wondering if I'll be able to work to earn some pocket money. Gotta keep the faith, I guess.

Also, another thing is, my lecturer has started to give out some assignment for us to submit on week 2, after the semester starts. It's a campaign assignment. Such a kill joy. *heart sinks*

 I feel like my semester break ain't as enjoyable as how I expected it to be. In fact, I am starting to worry about groups and subjects for next semester. I'm feeling quite insecure and worried right now. Hopefully, it will be good to me. *gulps* Some Maslow's Hierarchy of motivation is needed, though.

Sucks to be in my position right now.

Alright, time to sleep.. I should stop overthinking by now. 

Goodnight folks. 

#SHOUTOUT Happy mother's day

It's 11th of May, which means it is Mother's Day!

A big shoutout to all the wonderful mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day! May all the awesome mum in the universe be blessed and be helped with love, kindness, peace & luck.
My best wishes to y'all. :)

Mum & Grannie. Two of my favorite ladies on earth. x

My thoughts and wishes

Good afternoon, my fellow friends and lovelies! It's saturday today. Any wonderful plans today, guys? So, apparently I just distributed two of my chicken pies to my friend earlier. She said they looked amazing but I'm waiting for her feedback on the taste. Hope it will be good. *fingers crossed* teehee!
Anyway lovelies, I have been having plenty of thoughts lately. I noticed that people tend to hold grudges and hatred whenever someone did something wrong to them. I mean, the more grudges you hold, that's when you become negative and pessimistic. You tend to hate on every single action that the person do or perform. Am I right? I believe that everyone should be forgiven and grudges should be let go if hold. When you let go, that's when you move on and become better, more positive and calmed.

Moreover, I have noticed that many people actually talk big, but the actions contradict. For instance, "I will be there when you need me.. etc" I mean like, if you know that you're not gonna do as what you say, just don't say anything or promise things, because chances are, you're giving others big expectations, and the sad part is when it leads to massive disappointments. I have experienced or encountered this for a number of times. I have no idea why some people just like to say things they won't do, just to please others. Please don't. It's unhealthy. It actually hurts the other parties that actually decode the messages you send, like a lot, seriously okay.

Oh yeah guys! I have been wondering whether I should get myself a DSLR camera because it will not only provide high quality pictures when I selfie or take nice scenery. In fact, it will actually also be useful to me in assignments and college, especially in my advertising major field. I need high quality videos for assignments. But unfortunately, my current financial statement forbids me to purchase it. I need work! I will get a job soon and work hard for what I want. My wishlist - DSLR & a car for my own. Yeah, it would cost me a bomb if I were to purchase it right now. I have one month of sem break, so hopefully I will spend it wisely.

That's about it for now.. I will be heading to my relative's house to celebrate mother's day. I am pretty excited to reunite with them once again and hopefully, they will enjoy my chicken pie later. Okay, have a good Saturday guys. Party hard and enjoy yourself to the fullest.

Best regards, x. 

Greetings

So hi, it's semester break, finals over and it is the time of my life. Yes, the time of mah laife nigga. Semester break is so fun and amazing because I get to do whatever I want. Sleeping late is one of the holiday routines and it brings a lot of damage to my health and eyes. Yes, I know, it's bad but I still do it anyway. So the first week of sem break was good. I did a couple of memorable things and one of them was attending my aunt's wedding and be one of her bridesmaids. I felt so happy for my aunt because after 30 years of her life, she finally found someone and got married.
Frankly speaking, she had went through all the bad stages before getting married. She got cheated and deceived by many guys before this. But let's focus on the positive side, she's finally MARRIED. Just felt so glad for her!

 The wedding was simple yet at the same time, elegant and classy. I wore a traditional chinese cheong sam to her wedding dinner and it felt amazing because I hadn't wore that outfit for almost a year. To be honest, I actually gained weight before this and I was chubby. The cheong sam could barely even fit on me when I got chubby. Thank god I lost weight. I mean like seriously, that bad. But after months of avoiding supper and also due to college stress, I lost quite a number of weight. I am grateful of the way I am currently, and I certainly won't take it for granted and return to my old supper routine.

The cheong sam that I wore the other night.

Okay back to the original topic. So far, I really enjoyed the food and dishes that were served in the restaurant, and also catching up with my long-lost relatives and cousins. It was kinda awkward at first because we did not meet each other for quite some time, our mindset changed and we grew older. But after several attempts to break the "super thick layer" of ice, I started to feel the awkwardness fading and we laughed so much at the little jokes we shared. I guess it's pretty normal, huh? Like not seeing certain people for a long time and suddenly reunite back and things get pretty awkward...
We even took quite a number of pictures with all the hilarious gestures and poses. One of my favorite pictures was the one doing the "what" expression. I actually laughed when I re-looked at it back.

THIS ONE! My favorite picture.

WOW, seriously guys, look at the time. It freaking flies! Last week I was so anticipated to attend her wedding and now it's all over, just like that. I believe that my sem break will be over soon too. But oh well, let's not talk about college and assignments, I wanna enjoy my sem break before heading back to all the stress and difficult exams..
Okay, I'm done updating about wedding. Next, I will update you guys about my activities for yesterday.. I woke up at 4pm (yes I slept at 6am..it's crazy), made some delicious pie for le family, relatives, friends, and boyfie. I can't wait for them to taste it tomorrow! Just hopefully they will like it. So far, my mum and bro have tried them. They told me the pie tasted yummy and my mum even told me it felt as if like the pie was bought from some bakery shops. Okay, yes you're right, I was so flattered and ALL THE CLOUD 9 MOMENTS.. the end.
To sum it all up, I baked 20+ pie. It was all mini chicken pot pie and easy to be carried and served. I was quite satisfied with the compliments made by mum and bro and now.. I'm waiting for others to provide wonderful feedback. TEEHEEEEE (inspired by Ryan Higa)

 First batch. TADA!

 Second batch. WEEEE!

 3rd batch! WOOHOOOO.

All packed and ready to be distributed later!

 Notice the love shape in the middle? Teehee. Specially made for my baby.

Have you smiled today? Have a nice day today. Thanks for reading my blog. x

#Countdown to finals - 10 more days

*Tik tok tik tok* Time is ticking and passing by so quick like a blink of an eye.. *blinks* and there it goes...

Hi people! Frankly speaking, I am quite confident with all the subjects offered this semester except for one subject which I hate the most - statistics. I mean like seriously, I suck at maths. Tension la weyh. Despite all the effort I put in to be good at this subject, I'm still bad. I guess it's in my genes, math is never my thang, though. But hopefully I'll be able to pass that subject, a B or C is enough for me. I ain't gonna expect much for that subject. *fingers crossed* 

So what should I say next? umm, oh! How was my day? Well.. my day's been boring today. I had been sitting right in front the computer and preparing notes for my upcoming finals. Prggh. The only few things that kept me alive were music, food and social media. These are the things that boost me up when I get bored of studying. I'm thankful for these wonderful creations and I wonder what would I do without them, music especially. Oh lord.. I really can't imagine. 

Anyway, this semester had been a roller coaster. There were lotsa dramas, bumpy roads, and hectic classes and assignments as usual. *FACE PALM* Life just doesn't seem to give me break. I told my boyfriend, I have so much to tell about Mass Comm right now. Like seriously, if you think that it is easy, trust me, it is NOT. It's even listed in some website that Mass Comm is one of the toughest courses to be enrolled. So ladies and gents, it's time to change your mindset or perception, perhaps?

..So yeah. Nuff said. Just hope I'll do well in my final exam. Guys, please pray for me. Your support is highly appreciated and welcomed. 

Thankyouuu. xxxx 

My 21st birthday @ Ben's, Publika

[Birthday look]
Turned 21 yesterday. Time flies, ain't it?

Hey ladies and gents, so apparently, your precious gem stone has officially turned 21 yesterday. I mean like seriously, can you believe it? I am 21! Yes, no, yes, no? And frankly speaking, it felt like I just graduated from high school yesterday. Time passes so swiftly that I can hardly keep up with it, just like a blink of an eye. 

I'm gonna update you, peo-ple-leh, about my overall birthday. Here's where I went for my awesome birthday celebration.. Ben's, one of the restaurant held in Publika. Generally, all of us enjoyed the outstanding meals served in the restaurant. I ordered a mushroom chicken pie with salad as side dish; whereas daddy, mummy, brotha, and boyfie ordered salad, lasagna, aglio olio, and spaghetti. I'd rate this restaurant a 7 or 8 over 10. Super good food, environment, and services. 

Once again, happy 21st birthday to myself, again. May this year be a year full of happiness, luck, and many other positive things. x 

Dead & gone, hot & cold.

Hey guys, did you notice the title of this post actually represents two different songs? (Dead and gone by Justin Timberlake and T.I, Hot and cold by Katy Perry) In case if you're wondering, well, I haven't been updating my blog for literally a month and POP, Here I am, I'm back once again. So TA-DA, there goes the title. Lame? MEH? Hmm.. okay nevermind.

So, just a spontaneous and quick update here. "How are you sapphy?", "I'm fine thanks. Still alive, I'm grateful and thankful for it." lewl.
Life in college have been quite hectic and productive lately, and it is probably one of the reasons why I stopped blogging for a while. Handing in assignments almost every week is no fun and seriously I need a god damn break, I freaking mean it. Have some mercy on me and my classmates man, don't torture us degree student. Just kidding. LOL. Anyway, classes this week had been pretty productive. I went out with my classmates after class and we had lunch, watched movie, did some shopping as usual. I'm pretty content with my life the way it is now and it is no doubt that my current life is way better and peaceful than the previous one. However, I still need to be strong and conquer my fears and insecurities. There are plenty of things ahead of me and I hope I have enough strength to go through all that. Sincerely.

Also, an instant update about my Valentines day and Chinese New Year. Marc surprised me with a bouquet of pink roses along with Charles & Keith purse. I was quite excited and happy when I received the gifts. Whereby my gift for Marc was self-baked chicken pot pie and a classic grey tie from Padini. We both sorta enjoyed our Valentines day together. Overall, it was a simple and good celebration, I truly enjoyed it.

My Chinese New Year was pretty ordinary and decent. I remember sending my elder brother off to KLIA on the 2nd day of CNY was quite depressing. Me and my family got emotional because we knew it's gonna be different without him here at home. However, it was for the best and I hope he's gonna do well in UK. Speaking of my elder bro, yes, I do miss him a lot even though sometimes we disagree on most things and argue. He's still the best brother in my heart and no one could ever replace him. 

*clears throat* Okay now back to the CNY topic. So overall what I enjoyed most during CNY was the delicious food and time spent with family and relatives. Me and my relatives don't really communicate much due to the language barrier and mentality. Usually, I have to converse with them in Cantonese and Hokkien which I totally sucked at. Despite that, we still enjoyed the quality time together because it's a once in a while thing, we don't really get that often. So, that's about it for my awesome Chinese New Year.

....And that's the end of my "Dead & Gone, Hot & Cold" post....

Have a lovely Saturday, my fellow readers!

My first chicken pot pie

So, Valentines day was just around the corner. I decided to get outta my comfort zone and try to make something new and different for my boyfriend, as well as the family. (Family needs some love on Valentines too! haha)

To bake a chicken pot pie requires a lot of patience, time, and effort. I remember spending literally 2 days just to create the perfect pie crust. Overall, I'd say it was a success based on my family and boyfie's reviews and comments. They liked the taste of the inner ingredients, however the pie crusts need some improvements because it was a little hard and not-so-crunchy. But hey, it's my first attempt folks! I'm so proud of myself for the unexpected outcome! Pretty good for the first time huh. heh. 

Some of my friends asked me, "where did you learn to bake that?". Well, just in case if you're wondering if I have some experience in baking and such. Yes, I have a little but not professional! I basically get all the recipes from Google and YouTube, and I started baking due to my interest and the influences from my respective mum. 

Also, if you're wondering which website I got the recipe from, there you go.

♥ PIE CRUST - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AsWQGFqfac

♥ FILLING (CHICKEN) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CIhnDmG4iPM

Have a good day lovelies! x

Music is my life

I remember dad played the guitar when I was very young and he used to sing and play all the sentimental old songs in the car whenever we're on a trip or something. Yes, I was raised in a family who taught me to enjoy music and I developed my musical skills and talent through old hits and old movie soundtracks. When people ask me "Hey, do you listen to 90's or 80's?","Of course, name me any bands or songs back then." I used to fancy Cyndi Lauper, Bee-Gees, Abba, Oasis, Elton John, and Madonna.

So, the story of my life.. I started learning piano when I was 4 yrs old, and singing spontaneously when I was 6 or 7. I remember every weekend, my parents would send me to piano or music classes. I stopped learning piano around grade 5 and at the age of 17. Reason was I needed to focus on SPM, but that didn't stop me to continue singing and playing the piano. Britney spears, Christina Aguilera, Blue, Hilary Duff and Kelly Clarkson were my favorite singers back then. I remember back in those days I used to purchase their CD's and listen to them with my old CD walkman. Well, I'm not sure if the kids in this generation know what a CD walkman is. Lol. But life was much more simpler and easier back then.

Music and art were my life when I was a little girl. On my 9th year old birthday, I received a huge box of crayons from my parents and I already felt like the happiest girl. Not only that I developed my musical talent and interests, also my drawing skills. But unfortunately, I stopped drawing after I reached the age of 14 or 15, reason was I grew up and I realized I enjoy singing and playing the piano even more. When I reached high school, I was encouraged by my elder brother to join the choir. I gotta admit, Catholic choir was one of the top choirs in Kuala Lumpur and I remember winning 1st or 2nd place in district and state areas was my greatest achievement back then. It's undeniable that I had plenty of issues in high school like friendship, family, result, and relationship.. and choir was the one thing that light up my life.
Apart from that, I participated in a few singing auditions and performances outside like Digi Youth audition, performances organized by some music schools, and many more. I would sing Avril Lavigne, Kelly Clarkson, Rihanna, Christina Aguilera songs or duet with my elder brother. One of the memorable performances was dueting with my elder brother, we sang "The prayer" and it was amazing. The audiences gave us a round of applause.

When I reached college, I joined and participated in some music audition and performances. Back in 2012, I participated in "Segi Idol" and made it into top 10. I had so much fun meeting some new friends who are so talented. Some of them are so good on stage and seriously, to compare myself with them, I think they are way more talented and better. (Self esteem drop) *sobs* HAHA. But it's alright, that doesn't stop me from being myself and improving my vocal and stage performance.

Anyway ladies and gentlemen, I know it's a little long but I hope you enjoyed reading my story.
I'd like to let you guys know.. "Don't waste your talent or ability.. Cherish and use them wisely because they are the assets that set you apart and make you stand out from the rest. Keep fighting and improving to be better because they make you a unique person" Smile. :)

Real insecurities

So, this week  is the beginning of new semester, and apparently most of us have already started planning our groups for assignments. Unfortunately, I felt sick and feverish today so I ended up staying home and sleep instead. When I woke up, my friends told me they all had their own groups for assignments and that drove me absolutely panic and worried because as you know, I didn't attend the class due to fever and I don't have a group for assignments. So, I immediately picked up my phone and called my other classmates and see if their groups have slots. I ended up joining a group because apparently they are the only group who still have empty slots. 

Yes, I was feeling a little negative after knowing that I'm gonna be with an unfamiliar group for assignment. Plus the last semester I had some conflicts with my old group mates, I'm just really worried that they might do something really terrible to me this semester. I know I shouldn't care too much of what others gonna think about me but this is just my insecurity. And apparently, the new friends I mixed with, they are not in the same class with me, so this subject is prolly gonna be difficult for me to handle. This feeling sucks but I need to stand up and be strong in class and prove to them that I'm right. I need to do that.

However, after hearing Lizzie Velasquez's speech on YouTube, I then realized my life isn't that bad after all. I mean like compare to some patients who are fighting for their lives, or maybe some people who are homeless, disabled and so on. I should be grateful that I was given a normal life to live. Yes, I still might feel insecure and all but I will definitely do my best for this semester.

Like what Lizzie Velasquez said "You choose happiness or you choose to give up".
She definitely inspires me a lot, like a true role model.